New Mommy-cles ( New Mommy Chronicles)

OKAY, So first let me start off saying that I LOVE my new munchkin. I am beyond grateful for her and thank God everyday for her presence, but sometimes it can be a bit too much.

In September 2019, my bf and I found out that I miscarried our first baby. I was only about 3 months, but the loss still hit pretty hard. For months after I cycled between being heavily depressed and trying to forget it ever happened. Finally in April 2020, something broke inside of me and I finally felt set free from all of the hurt, regret, and sadness and found forgiveness, peace, and understanding. Unbeknownst to me at the time, I was destined to conceive my new love bug the same month.

After experiencing a loss so heavy and being blessed with my rainbow baby, I often feel guilty at times when my patience has worn thin. Being a new mom is truly a blessing, but the battle against all of the crying, diaper changes, feedings, colic, baby being unable to sleep without being held, and sometimes feeling like my baby prefers everyone around but me can be a bit overwhelming. So I cried today.

My bf recently went back to work (Monday) after two weeks of being home with us, and everyday since has affected both me and my precious. He’s been amazing, in tuned with my feelings, and always switches into daddy mode upon his arrival after work. I truly appreciate him. Without him and my mom, I truly don’t think I could’ve functioned at all these past 2.5 weeks (YES, 2.5 Weeks!).

So to any mom’s out there, especially the new ones/single ones, I love you. You can do this. It’s tough. It’s hard. At times I know you’ll wish that you could just stuff them back inside of you for just a few more weeks, but I believe in you. I pray that you have family/friends that will allow you the break that you need when you need it. You more than deserve it, no matter how old your baby is.